wow. i have so much i would like to say. but i do not know where to even begin.
i really changed so much since i last updated, which was over eight months ago.
lets see, i got my first job, and stuck with it the whole summer until the end of october when dorney park closed. so i thought that was kind of a good thing. im a sophmore in highschool now, and i think im doing pretty good with that. im maintaing all my good grades, so thats another positive thing in my life. i have the best friends in the world, and i know which ones i can truley count on. i tossed out the people i dont need or care for in my life; as for the guy i spoke of in my past entry; to tell you the truth im not even sure if i loved him. dont get me wrong, at one point that boy ment so much to me, but i dont know if the love i spoke of was true. why you may ask im saying this? well, he brought me too much pain and i held on for too long. i am starting to realize that he did not in fact make me the happiest i have ever been but in fact, another boy did. now as for this other boy, we definatly had a relationship that is so hard to grasp and understand for many. no, we were never technically labeled as 'boyfriend&girlfriend' but what we had, and what i felt for him was stronger then that. slowly over time he became my best friend but it was much more then that. everyone, including us could see that. he brought me complete happiness, and gave me the best summer of my life. just a simple hug or a kiss from him, could turn a bad day into a great day. i loved every moment i spent with him, they were some of the best times of my life. we ended up spending nearly everyday together after school, and on weekends. he wuold show up at my house at 5am, to wake me up, and stay until late at night. we would fall asleep together, and just act like complete idiots together. it was perfect. until one day, right before my eyes, he was gone. my best friend, ran away from 'home'. i havent seen him since. why i say 'home'? becuase where he was wasnt a home, it wasnt even close. the closest thing he has to a home was my house, but his whole story of his past and what hes been through is besides the point. the point is ive never got the chance to tell him how much i love and care for this boy, and hopeflly one day i will get the chance to.

i got a phonecall from him today, it was the first time i heard his voice in almost 2 months.

it brightened my whole day.


well here is my update for now.
if anyone is still reading this (:
lol; well ill probably update this again when i figure out what else there is to say;

happy holidays everyone (:



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wow. i havent been on this in over a year.
im not sure if anyone reads this anymore,
but im going to write on this for the hell of it.
like it said in that last entry, everything did change
and it WAS for the better, in a way.
that 8th grade year i had some of the best times if my life,
and the worst. i lost a best friend, someone i thought i could
never   be without, and then finaly got over a boy i claimed
to be head over heels for. the feelings i felt for that boy back when i was 12/13
didnt even compare to the feelings i faced for this amazing boy named cody moyer.
41607, during my 8th grade year, changed everything. we dated for 8 months,
and i would never give up those memories for anything. he still means so much to me
and he will always have that place in my heart. no matter what. weve been through it all.

he honestly changed me from my old, depressive ways,
and made me change my perspective on life and everything
around it.
sadly, we ended up breaking up 3 days before christmas,
but now everythings finally starting to make sence, and
come back together. we are friends, no more then that.
but there will always be something there between us. i can feel it.

anyways. i know for a fact i changed alot. i try not to let little things bother me
and get to me as much as i used to. i know who my true friends are and who i can count on
i never got into the whole "lets go smoke some pot, and get highhhhhhhh shitt"
not my thing. and it wont be. im smarter then that. in the long run it will
fuck up things and you will change.

im not sure what else to talk about.
i jsut felt like getting stuff down .
so idk,

heres my update for a year (:
lol maybe ill update again who knows.

<333333peace.
www.myspace.com/likeduhhh___cherylx

^hittt me up thereeee.
add me if you want im friendly as hell (:

everything has changed. im not sure if its for the better. but all i no is everythings different.
and nothing will EVER go back to the way it was... </3

yeahh superr boring dayy. blahh. not going skating tomorrow becasue im grounded.well thats all i have to say 

ok well yeah leave some more comments. im trying to get like 100 or soo. then ill update on a new entry =]. soo make me happy.

ily sfm will. <3 <3  <3